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They say people have their ways
And people stay the same
Accept the way it is
Accept that things don't change
Some people make it worse
Some people don't want to listen
In the end it all works out
In the end, they learn their lesson

What if I do nothing?
What if I just turn my back on you?
If I say nothing
What if I just walk away from you?
Walk away
I could never walk away from you

They say people have their ways
And people stay the same
Accept the way it is
I know that I can change

-Goldfinger
	

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Free

Have you ever think of what is next in your life?

I have, often undecided in my life.

If I have a second chance in life , I will give it a go. I would like to use what I earn to travel.
I have always been a gutsy person. I don't know since when, I became a timid person. A person who thinks too much before doing anything.
I don't know when I have I became a person who gives up easily.

Now, I felt I have been trapped in a cage. Wanting to get out. Be the person I used to be. I felt really trapped in words and in my present world. I no longer reached out for things I want. Usually, I wait till everyone has their turn before I take my turn.

I have live a life waiting/seeing to other people's needs first. I think I have lost myself in the process. I want my real rich life back. To grab and seize the day. To see everyday as a new day instead of being bored to life.

I want to get out of this hole of waiting for others to finish their games. I want a life. A life to meet people, to see places. I don't want to be coop up at home. I shall make this promise to myself, if ever I start to earn my own money, I will save them, to go out travelling. To wonder around the countries that I want to see. To make friends who would like to visit the place. Not hindled and bundled and blogged down by others who have not thought for me. I am damn with these people.

I HAVE LOST MYSELF for the sake of others. I lost the speech I have. I became too quiet. Always talking to myself in my heart. No conversation with the person I am married to. That person, has no need of conversation and is too selfish to see that I need a conversation.

I want to hike, to find adventure, to visits other beautiful places. There should not be anything that holds me except having no money. Therefore, now the main thing is to earn more money.

Being here, is no longer me. It's only a shell, I am not here.

I didn't marry my soulmate, cause a soulmate would know and will have something in common with me. I need to find my real soulmate who could make me whole again.

Not one who suck out my life. Making me only a shell. The rest, I am just hiding away, not facing the real me. Slowly, losing myself and feeling really miserable.

Those were lost, including my laughter and smile. I have lost them. 9:28 PM

Scribbled by Eagle at {9:28 PM}

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I've walked the distance

March 2009

The past

The Woman Lost In a Shell

Love nature; Laughter,intellectual conversation; Love to Learn; Love to read

Wish list

1. Make my own $30K per mth
2. Have a chance to book and travel with my friends
3. Be myself
4. Live for myself
5. Be the real me again