Monday, March 23, 2009
The Me Now
Who am I now?
What have I become?
I am Lost.
I don't even know what I like now. Food? anything that taste good. Reading? anything that is a good read. Movies? anything that moves me to tears or laughter. Who I love most? I don't know, I just know I love some people around me. But not crazy and excessive love. I care for them. Friends? All are friends, no one special.
Die,,all so lame. No special love or hate. Just in the middle. Is this what Buddha refers to? The middle path. It's frightening when I feel this way for a long time.
No sexual urges. Nothing. No special craving. Even when I have been to a beautiful place, it's only momentory love. Thereafter, the feeling past and all I could say about the place is simply "good".
Why have I become this way?
10:37 AM